Sometimes life amazes me!

I don't know what sparked me to look at my long lost blog, but it has for sure been awhile. I was surprised this past week when I logged on at exactly a year from my last post. I really couldn't remember when I had last written on here, and I logged on on May 24th and saw that my last post was May 24th one year ago. Kind of funny.

Funny thing is I have put all of the weight back on and then some. I am currently starting a new weight loss direction. I know you are all thinking here we go again. But really I am not writing for anyone out there but me this time. I felt like writing because I remember it helping me keep my long term goals in perspective.

I have reached my all time high at 191 pounds. I have had a lot of things to stress over in the past year, and food is my comforter.

I am planning to lose a lot of weight fast at the moment. I know, spare me the lecture of un-healthy weight loss. I will do it with hard core diet and exercise. It will happen.

So, here is to new starts, new adaventures, and a brighter horizon. Moving forward.

I think I've lost my marbles.....I'm trying hard to find them. Still hanging on, but not doing too well. I saw that I still might have a shot at the overall and that's promising. I will keep moving along.
I have had a better week emotionally, but I still seem to be eating a little more than I want to be eating. I will do this these 2 weeks!

Holding on for dear life...

I'm still hanging in here. I can't believe that I let life take over......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh we all know what I mean by that. I really am still treking along but it is getting harder and harder as things in my life are changing.

I'm still losing, and still reading all of your blogs I have just lost a lot of hours in my day. I start school tomorrow....and I'm not sure how that is going to turn out. I'm going into social work. I had three interviews last week for work, and I have another tomorrow in the AM. I've added 2 foster children to my life for the next couple of months. Yes you are reading that right. So I now have 9 under 8 in my home as we added another 2 year old and another 6 year old....why? cause that's the way I love life.

So there is the side of me that wants to just become content with being fat forever. And then there is the side of me that says....KEEP GOING!!!!!! YOU ROCK!!!!!!!

So there you have it folks I am still going.

I'm searching for motivation. It was very sad to not be in the winnings last month....but I didn't gain. I did however spend my month sitting around. I am in the clear with my hip, but it still doesn't feel right.
I am hoping for a killer month this month, I am kicking it into high gear so I can get my place back. You guys have all done so awesome and way to go this past month.

My oh My!!!!

So can't wait for my hip to be back to it's normal self. It is getting really hard to try and be careful. But last night I hurt it again.......ugh!!!! and I don't even know what I did. It had been feeling better and then OUCH!!!!! it is now in pain again. I go back in for another follow up this coming week.

I'm still doing ok if you want to say that. I am really struggling this month though. being down puts me in a state of depression. And we all know what a state of depression leads to...FOOD. I am trying hard.

I am also currently looking for full time work and that has taken it's own emotional toll on me.

Still moving along forward!

I really need someone to kick me in the rear!!!

I really need to blog! I really need to blog! I really need to blog....

I am finally allowed to be up and around on my leg, but as you may have guessed it still hurts and NO EXERCISE!!!!! I am having a really hard time losing anything this month because I'm totally down.

On the brighter side.....My hubby and I went out of town for a few days. Just got back. I was presenting at a training event for Foster Facilitators. And then I got to attend the conference and sit through classes for a few days. It was nice to get away and spend time with out all the kidos....But I ATE AND ATE AND ATE!!!!!!! It's the first time since January that i really over did it. I really enjoyed my stay at the resort that they Foster Care Foundation put us up in. I don't even want to get on the scale....

Well I am hoping that the rest of you are moving forward. I am getting back in the game and trying to lose without doing anything to hurt my body.....I want my leg to heal so bad!!!!!!!

I'm still fitting in my smaller pants...not small pants but smaller. So that's good!

AHHHHHHHHHHH!

So I shifted my femur bone from my hip socket OUCH!!!! This is by far the most painful thing I have ever experienced. I don't know what I am going to do. I have been down on the couch completely for a week and they said I very likely will be down for a month!!!! Today I had to go to an appointment that I couldn't change and dragged myself there and now I am in so much pain again. So apparently there is a reason they told me to stay off of it and to only walk as far as the bathroom with my new CANE!
So I am sitting on my couch getting FAT!!!!!!!!! I am not even eating crap but I'm not moving at all either...go figure!

I hope all of you are doing fantabulous!!!!!!