Monday, May 24, 2010
I have had a better week emotionally, but I still seem to be eating a little more than I want to be eating. I will do this these 2 weeks!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
I'm still losing, and still reading all of your blogs I have just lost a lot of hours in my day. I start school tomorrow....and I'm not sure how that is going to turn out. I'm going into social work. I had three interviews last week for work, and I have another tomorrow in the AM. I've added 2 foster children to my life for the next couple of months. Yes you are reading that right. So I now have 9 under 8 in my home as we added another 2 year old and another 6 year old....why? cause that's the way I love life.
So there is the side of me that wants to just become content with being fat forever. And then there is the side of me that says....KEEP GOING!!!!!! YOU ROCK!!!!!!!
So there you have it folks I am still going.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
I am hoping for a killer month this month, I am kicking it into high gear so I can get my place back. You guys have all done so awesome and way to go this past month.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
I'm still doing ok if you want to say that. I am really struggling this month though. being down puts me in a state of depression. And we all know what a state of depression leads to...FOOD. I am trying hard.
I am also currently looking for full time work and that has taken it's own emotional toll on me.
Still moving along forward!
Thursday, April 22, 2010
I am finally allowed to be up and around on my leg, but as you may have guessed it still hurts and NO EXERCISE!!!!! I am having a really hard time losing anything this month because I'm totally down.
On the brighter side.....My hubby and I went out of town for a few days. Just got back. I was presenting at a training event for Foster Facilitators. And then I got to attend the conference and sit through classes for a few days. It was nice to get away and spend time with out all the kidos....But I ATE AND ATE AND ATE!!!!!!! It's the first time since January that i really over did it. I really enjoyed my stay at the resort that they Foster Care Foundation put us up in. I don't even want to get on the scale....
Well I am hoping that the rest of you are moving forward. I am getting back in the game and trying to lose without doing anything to hurt my body.....I want my leg to heal so bad!!!!!!!
I'm still fitting in my smaller pants...not small pants but smaller. So that's good!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
So I am sitting on my couch getting FAT!!!!!!!!! I am not even eating crap but I'm not moving at all either...go figure!
I hope all of you are doing fantabulous!!!!!!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
Congrats to all on sticking it out and still being here in the comp. An DEBBIE I LOVE YOU!!!!!! way to go!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
So just a few quick thoughts....I am seriously considering training for a 1/2 marathon. Not sure though. I have never been fond of running. But I don't know if that is a good reason to not try. I am however one who loves to achieve something great. And wouldn't that be great to say I RAN A 1/2 MARATHON! So thinking about it.
I haven't weighed myself in a bit, so I'm not sure exactly where I'm at. But I can say I FEEL GOOD!
Monday, March 15, 2010
I weighed myself yesterday, and for those of you that are wondering I am still on the right track and moving forward.
I'm hanging in there.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
I'm ready to up it a notch. I have been thinking this weekend about my plan of action and how I am going to kick it into high gear. Full speed ahead. Guess at this point the thing I need the most is to exercise. So I am creating a challenge for myself. I love to spend time chatting and playing dumb games on Facebook. I decided tonight that I can play as much as I want on there this month. I will keep track of all of my time. And for every minute I spend playing online I have to put into exercising that day. So to all of my Facebook friends.....just know if I don't get on there this month that I still love you.
But since I have been being so convincing that I LOVE TO EXERCISE I should be able to spend tons of time on Facebook.
So lets bring on MARCH!
Saturday, March 6, 2010
So, I am obsessing over my pictures. Thanks Karilynn for putting them side by side for me. I can't believe the difference, and it makes me so excited.
So, funny little story I'll share. I was so thrilled with my results yesterday. I spent most of my day on cloud 9 million and 99. I couldn't focus, couldn't think, and couldn't accomplish anything. I was in my own la-la land. I needed someone to give me a reality check and bring me down to earth speed. But that didn't happen. So last night I got in the shower to deck myself out for a hot date with my hot hubby. I pulled out of a box of clothes (that have been too small) a really cute outfit. I left my hair down (which hardly ever happens), put on jewelry, make-up and even some really nice perfume. I was feeling GREAT about myself, and it has been a long time since I have felt like I looked good. I needed to go to the grocery store. So I head out on my quest for groceries, and I was ready to strut my stuff. I'm walking around the store collecting the things I needed with my mind building up how good I look and that my hubby and I were going to have a hot date (seriously strutting around the store thinking I LOOK FABULOUS). Then it hit me. "UM, HELLO!!!! (my wake up call) you are still 30 pounds overweight, and no one is really going to notice how you look." And there it was laid before me, that I still have a lot of work to do if I want to make heads turn. I very quickly came to reality that unless I ran into someone that I knew, no one there would have any idea that I have accomplished something great. I had a good laugh about it -- seriously had a good laugh about it. Then finished quickly at the store, and got home to my hubby...who thought I LOOKED FABULOUS!
So, I have a lot of work to do. If I want people's heads to turn, I have a ways to go. But it's doable, and I KNOW IT! The progress I've made just makes it clear to me that I CAN DO THIS! I can continue to lose and become healthy and feel great everyday of my life.
Friday, March 5, 2010
I can't stop jumping around and being so excited. I am so happy to be down for a grand total of 24.4 pounds....that simply blows me away......
I am thrilled that I was able to pull off the weight loss I did this month. And it has just added a little more fuel to my fire. I want to keep moving along...and kick it into gear. I have been exercising more. Remember I LOVE TO EXERCISE! I am not doing it perfect but a whole lot more than not. I'm thrilled with the transformation I am making to my body.
Had to stand on the scale a few times this morning to make sure I was seeing it right. I don't know that it has really set in yet. All of the things I opted not to have...I have made myself a very happy girl this morning.
I will say month 2 was a bit harder. I can only imagine that month 3 will be even more so. With the loss I have had it begins to get easier to start justifying little tiny things....I've done really well and that Reese's big cup should be a reward. I am so trying to hold strong to saying NO! I know that ONE will hurt me! Once I've justified one thing it gets easier to justify more. So tonight I will make my flax seed pudding (cause I really liked it) and I will celebrate my loss!
Oh my weigh in this morning was 154.6 down from 164.4 last month.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
I can't even tell everyone how excited I am that there is another weigh-in this Friday. I can't wait. I haven't done as good as I know I could have done. But I don't think I totally have failed this month either. It will be fun to see how we all have done.
I have pants that no longer fit. And I mean really no longer fit. I have to get rid of them. One of the pairs are my absolute favorites. Funny thing is I don't want to get rid of them... but I don't intend to ever fit in them again, so away they will go. They are a pair of slacks, and I'll tell you what, slacks are not meant to be big in the hips and saggy in the butt. They no longer look very nice on me.
One thing I have really missed this month is my blogging. I know I've said it before -- and you will all be sick of hearing me say it again -- but I'm going to try hard again to blog everyday. This month, I let life take over and I failed to blog. I do so much better when I am blogging, and I pull great positive motivation and energy from reading all of yours.
Good luck everyone on your final days!
oh yeah, and I LOVE EXERCISE!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
So I did great on eating until today....for old time's sake, my dad took me to a car-hop that he went to growing up, and I went to growing up. He is flying home to Alaska tomorrow and wanted to head to get a fresh-lime and a burger from "Peach City" for old times. I couldn't resist and I tried to get something good on the menu...but they have been there since the 1930's, and everything is pretty much burgers and fries, not even a salad on the menu board. So that started it....and then...I got an offer not to refuse...and probably will never happen again. I got to go to a Utah Jazz game with my hubby, with VIP treatment....and no, not VIP treatment from him. We had VIP passes. They included a lovely dinner with fantabulous food, and a wonderful assortment of desserts. Then off to watch the game from row 20 (so close). Then back to the VIP room for popcorn and nachos. The Jazz won! The night was great! And I enjoyed myself. Like I said, the chances of ever having VIP passes again is next to never. So only one day blown. Not bad, I must say.
Well, as of tomorrow, I will be back to a little more normal. It was nice to see all of my family, but they really threw off my groove.
Thank you for all of your kind words and condolences for the loss of my cousin. He will be greatly missed.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
So tonight I am not really up to blogging. I think I will go sleep instead of eat.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Snacking is my major weakness. I can snack on good or bad food. That makes no difference. I have decided that I really enjoy the process of eating. I just do. So I am finding that since I'm not eating all the time, I have a little time on my hands. Well, not a ton, because I am always busy. But I am finding that I have idle time that I would usually be eating. During these little bits of time, it is very hard for me to not choose to eat. So I am going to have to start to fill that time with something so I'm not just sitting in my kitchen staring at what I would like to eat. I could easily fill it with more laundry, or cleaning...then I would have a shiny clean home. But I don't think that will work. I think that I need to fill the time with something that brings me enjoyment so that I can like it as much as I like eating....sorry just rambling on here.
I'm already starting to get nervous about where everyone will be at for the next weigh in...and there is still soooooooo much time left. But I just don't know where I'm at compared to the rest of you, and that is hard. I read your blogs of your success, and then I panic.....what if I'm not doing enough?
Monday, February 15, 2010
First thing this morning I am back on going strong. I am heading forward with more force than before. Apparently making me mad makes me want it more! I still plan to win! I still plan to exercise! I still plan to eat clean. I upped it a notch this week even more strict than before! I am still going to have the body of my dreams! I'm here going strong with more will power than before.
As for the challenge this week...well lets say I might be able to argue that my posture problems are worse than my weight problems. My hunchback is worse than the pictures Karilynn posted. Now you all are picturing me like a camel with a hump on my back. But seriously, all kidding a side, I have terrible posture. It is very painful to hold my sternum up and my shoulders back. Has been an issue for years. I even bought a special brace several years ago to wear. That helped for a short while, but then the brace hurt so bad to wear, I gave it up. I will try my best to work on my posture this week. I know it looks so nice when my posture is good. I just don't know that I can fix years and years of damage there. I guess I'm trying to fix years and years of damage on my weight, so all things are possible.
I am still trying to finish my list of excuses...I think I've got them...
1. I'm too tired.
2. I want it to come off overnight.
3. I'm not that fat. It could be worse.
4. But...I LOVE food!
5. I don't have the time.
7. Food makes me feel better.
8. I've always eaten this much...it didn't effect me when I was younger.
9. Exercising hurts!
Well, there they are...and I'm trying hard to ignore them so I can keep moving forward! I have become too content with the way I am. But I really am not happy in this body! I want to feel GREAT! I want to look GREAT! I want to be GREAT! I know I sound snobby, but seriously, don't we all want to look good and feel good?
Last thing FYI, as for now, I am not going to update my ticker for a couple of weeks. I'm going to wait and let us all be surprised. I don't know yet if I will wait until the weigh in or do it before...but for now, we wait. I can't bare getting on the scale again and it not going down...Let the pounds fall off. I'm off to work out. I already did my short program this morning. Now for the really HARD and PAINFUL longer workout.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
2. I want the weight to come off over night. I really don't want to have to focus and work on it. That takes time and can be challenging. So over the years I have looked for many fast fixes. I guess by now I have realized they don't really exist. I have lost weight here and there...and I have always managed to put it back on. I want to go to bed one night and wake up the next morning smaller. Is that too much to ask? So if it can't come off over night then I can't lose anything...it's too hard to work at. There's the excuse "it takes too long."
So I am trying to decide how often I want to weigh myself. I am undecided I am considering, every day, once a week, twice a month, or once a month. I see pros and cons to all of them. So as it stands right now I have not updated my ticker since the BIG WEIGH IN.
It is so nice to be back on track with the blogging. Makes me feel really good inside. I look forward to sitting down at night and writing my thoughts down once the kids are in bed and all is quiet.
My sweet daughter got to be the devils advocate today... She was eating Valentine's Conversation hearts, and she picked out some special ones just for me. So sweet of her. They said "You're #1" "Love you" "You're the Best." I wasn't planning on eating them.I said thank you and tucked them away....until she laid it on thick..."It's not like one will hurt you....They're not going to make you fat....I picked them just for you....Pleeeeeaaaaaasssssseeeee...But mom I love you...." So I ate my 3 little hearts so she knew I loved her back. Just bummed because if I was going to break and eat sugar...I would not have picked conversation hearts.
Well off to do my "slim in 6". Then on to another day.....
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
I was so proud of myself last night. I had every reason in the world to not do my "Slim in 6." To start with, I had already exercised that morning. But I got my running shoes on and got my resistance bands out and my water...and 47 minutes later I was sweating like crazy. I DID IT!
Well, I decided that I would treat myself to my own Valentine's Day present. I bought the new Tosca Reno cookbook and her Revised Eat Clean Diet book. I am so stoked. I can't wait to have a few minutes to look them over.
So I think the only way I am going to write up my excuse list is to do it a little at a time. I have too many excuses, so the task at the moment is a little overwhelming. Here is a start: 1. I'm tired! All of the time. I suffer with chronic fatigue, and I can't ever seem to get enough sleep.
Thanks for everyone's support! I love reading what you're doing and what drives you.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Today is so AWESOME and I feel great! Of course I am doing great on the clean eating. And now that I am blogging again, I am 100% focused on what I am eating. But the best part about everything is I am so motivated to go for 1st place this month. 3rd was great, but it wasn't 1st.
I did the unthinkable! I exercised! Last night I did a fantastic work out, "Slim in 6." Then, this morning I was so on fire that while waiting for my daughter at the skating rink, I ran the bleachers. Yikes! That was kind of killer. Then, to top it off, I did the "30 day shred" workout this morning. Now, tonight, I have to do my "Slim in 6" workout still, and then start again tomorrow. I know you're thinking "What the..." Well, as the pounds start melting away, and I get smaller and smaller, you can blame Debbie. See, to check out the video, I went and did the "30 day Shred" with her. But I committed myself to the "Slim in 6," so I have to do it. I HAVE TO DO IT! Even though I already worked out today, I have not done the program I committed to doing each day. So I have to do it, "finish what you start." I don't intend to do that much exercise everyday, but who knows. I am so stoked.
I did one more unthinkable thing! I ate Tofu! Yep. I know to some, it's not so out there. To me...instant gag reflex. But I actually think I like what I made. Granted, no one would ever know there was tofu in it. I made the Tofu Chocolate Mousse in Tosca Reno's cookbook. So healthy and a great treat. I am not a huge chocolate lover though, so I think I might try to experiment with it and make a different flavor. It's mostly made of tofu, there's no sugar in it unless you choose to use bad chocolate. SO maybe I will be brave and try tofu in something else.
I haven't made my list of excuses yet for this weeks challenge. Mostly haven't done it because I am too busy making excuses of why I can't make the list of excuses. lol
Keep going strong everyone!!!
Monday, February 8, 2010
What I want to achieve...
1. I will look so good that I make people's heads turn. (their heads already turn, because I walk by with 7 kids)
2. I will be successful in making a life style change.
3. I will feel healthy, beautiful and strong.
4. I will be in excellent health.
5. I will be able to reach my ideal weight and stay there.
6. I will teach my children by example the importance of taking care of yourself.
7. I will (as Karilyn says) "Finish what I start".
8. I will make exercise part of my life.
I'm still making excuses to come up with the list of excuses...lol
Sunday, February 7, 2010
1. Being in the winners circle is fantastic! What an awesome thing to achieve. Really
makes a person feel good about themselves. I really am so happy that I made it in the top 4. The only thing that could have been better would be to have WON! Next time.
2. Writing about it means more than one knows. I was thinking about what might have made the difference. I did best when I was very consistently blogging everything. I worked harder at my clean eating when I talked about it. I had more positive energy when I was writing about it. Taking 10 minutes to write my thoughts, feelings, and actions kept my focus strong.
3. When life gets busy....I slack! K I didn't actually do awful, but I did worse the busier I got. Still made good choices in my diet but not the best. Sometimes convenience overpowers health. Let me clarify: it wasn't like I was eating microwave TV dinners and donuts but instant white rice instead of 30 minutes to cook brown. Or I would eat regular pasta instead of quinoa. I still tried hard to keep within clean eating for the most part.
4. Saying "no" to the foods you love is always a challenge. I must pride myself on the ability to pass up the things I love because right now I am doing it. It gets harder every day. Having gone 1 month without a Reese's Big Cup is killing me: I want one so BAD! But I know that if I eat one right now, I will eat 15 more before I stop. So I must contain myself. I also have noticed how hard it is to fix food for my family and other people, and not snack on or sample it. My best fix for this is right before I start cooking I put gum in my mouth. Then I seem to not try everything.
5. Thinking yourself skinny will work. I know: silly. But I believe that when I try hard to think skinny, I have so much more will power. It motivates me to become something. I act skinny, and by acting skinny, I eat less and keep moving throughout my day. I also have better posture when I think skinny.
6. Exercise! Need I say more. By now I must come to grips with reality. Exercise WILL help me. So I know that I could have lost more, and I could have done better. I only exercised 1 day out of the whole 1st month of the competition, and I managed to lose 14.6 pounds (must have been a killer work out j/k). So I know I could have done better. I could have lost more. I NEED TO EXERCISE.
Well, I wanted to share somethings I have learned. I am taking what I have learned, picking up and applying it to this month. I truly am proud of the loss that I have accomplished, and it gives me all the more drive to push forward.
Friday, February 5, 2010
Next time I will remember to turn the flash off. The white floor with the white paper and white scale, really bleaches the picture.(I am not so good with the camera I will figure out how to turn off the flash eventually) But no matter how you look at it. It says 164.4!!!!! Yippy!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
I wish that I was one the lost weight when I was stressed....but I am a stress eater. So I have a very busy week this week, and am feeling the stress. Which means it is taking everything in me not to bust out a package of candy bars, and break out the ice cream, along with freshly made cookie dough. My stress will eventually pass, but until then it is so hard.
Lets keep moving forward! February is going to be AWESOME!
Monday, February 1, 2010
So this week, I can notice a difference in my weight loss. My face looks better, and I was able to squeeze into a size 12 pant (down from 14). It is truly amazing at how great a few pounds lost can do for a person.
I am getting nervous about the big weigh-in on Friday. I can't wait to see how we all do. Let's keep moving forward!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Well I will keep going as strong as I can, and hope the few little splurges won't cost me the weight I have already lost.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Well, one more week till the big weigh-in. Good luck everyone! We are all making such great changes in our lives!
Thursday, January 21, 2010
I'm getting a little more creative in what I am eating and still enjoying it. Curious if anyone has tried a quince. It is a fruit I picked up the other day. I was so excited to try it. I ran a search online to see how to fix it...and you have to cook it. Seriously, this yellow fruit looks like a deformed lemon the size of a grapefruit with a little of a pear shaped core and rock hard. You peel it and cook it for 1 hour -- 1 whole hour. It changes to a pink color and then you can eat it. Well, I peeled mine and cored it, which was really hard because it was like a rock. I put it in the pan to cook. I forgot about it...and we all know what happened about 2 hours later...It was burnt to the bottom of my pan. LOL. So I will have to try again sometime.
The exciting news is my pants are slightly sliding down!!!!
I am still not doing well with the exercise. I think part of the problem is I am tired all of the time. Then, exercise becomes one more thing. I am trying hard to get more sleep so my body can have the strength to exercise. But baby steps -- one thing at a time. I know Tuesday was just here, but I can't wait to jump on my scale again. I now am very happy with my 2.4 pound loss. As long as that scale keeps going down, I'll keep moving on.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
I was thinking about cheating for the first time: I want some ice cream! Only because my husband has left it sitting out on the counter for the past hour. So I want just one bite. How bad would that be? And would it really effect me? But then I know one bite leads to one more bite, and then I might as well have a whole bowl...So I picked up Tosca Reno's book and am rereading the section on cheating. So let me share with you from her book to give us all a little strength, for when we do happen to cheat (which I haven't chosen to do yet). "Believe it or not, cheating serves a purpose. Once you've indulged in your particular brand of sin, the pleasure is short-lived. The treat tastes good while you're indulging but soon afterwards you feel as if you've made a big mistake." It causes you to focus on all the hard work you had accomplished to this point. And can help to re-motivate you to head forward in the direction you are going to a healthy body.
So I have chosen to not have the ice cream. I have done so good, and I am determined to stay committed. So here is one more quote from her book that rings true..."One of the most difficult decisions you can make is to go on a diet. Tougher still is staying on it." I AM STAYING ON IT!
Monday, January 18, 2010
Pan-Fried Chickpea Salad1 tablespoon clarified butter, olive oil, or coconut oil2 cups cooked chickpeas (garbanzo beans), pat them completely dry with clean dish towel1 cup of chopped leeks1 medium clove of garlic, mincedzest of one lemon1/3 cup plain yogurt1 to 11/2 teaspoons curry powder (or to taste)scant 1/4 teaspoon fine grain sea salt1/2 cup of loosely packed fresh cilantro, chopped1/2 cup red onion or red spring onions, chopped
Heat the cooking oil in a large skillet and add the chickpeas. Saute over medium-high heat, stirring occasionally, until they start getting a bit golden in color. Stir in the leeks and cook until the chickpeas are more golden and the leeks have browned a bit as well, roughly 7 - 10 minutes total. At the last minute, stir in the garlic and the lemon zest. Remove from heat, and set aside.
While the chickpeas cool, make the yogurt dressing by combining the yogurt, curry powder, and salt in a small bowl. Taste, adjust, and set aside.
When you are ready to serve the salad, toss the chickpea mixture with most of the cilantro and most of the chopped red onion. Add about 1/2 of the yogurt dressing and toss again. If you like more dressing, keep adding until you are pleased. Serve on a platter sprinkled with the remaining onions and cilantro.
Serves 4 as a side.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
I'm moving forward this week, even stronger than the last! I feel great and am going on!