I may take you all by surprise!

I have slowly been treking along this month. But none the less I am still moving forward or should I say going down. I have had my own personal emotional and physical struggles this month that I can't seem to shake. I am not really veering from my goals and plans. I have some severe health issues that have flaired up these past weeks and have gotten the better of me. I am eagerly waiting for my drive, energy and focus to kick back in gear. I have not let it knock me down though it has just taken a lot out of me. Which means somethings have been left undone (like blogging and house cleaning:)etc.) I have done awesome on the exercising this month and that is a triumph for me. I know I can do this! I unfortunately have not had the amount of time needed this month to read up on everyones blogs, but I plan to sit and go through the few I have missed this week. I love reading them. They are what keeps my head in the game. So even when I haven't commented and i get on real quick I am always reading them. Thanks.

Just to update....

I am doing well as far as diet and EXERCISE! yes I said EXERCISE. I am doing it. GO ME! I am lacking in the blogging. I have been spending less time on Facebook...which means less time on the computer....which means I'm not up to par on blogging. I will need to work on that. But when I get online I want to play on FB.

So just a few quick thoughts....I am seriously considering training for a 1/2 marathon. Not sure though. I have never been fond of running. But I don't know if that is a good reason to not try. I am however one who loves to achieve something great. And wouldn't that be great to say I RAN A 1/2 MARATHON! So thinking about it.

I haven't weighed myself in a bit, so I'm not sure exactly where I'm at. But I can say I FEEL GOOD!

A week has gone by....

I can't believe that it has been a whole week since my last post. I guess I was having a blah...blah...blah...week. I wasn't doing anything yucky with me eating, so not sure why the no blogging. I have even been exercising. Well I have to exercise so I can get on Facebook. I just have been feeling blah there for lack of enthusiasm. I hope to kick out of it soon.

I weighed myself yesterday, and for those of you that are wondering I am still on the right track and moving forward.

I'm hanging in there.

My own challenge...

I really love all the energy that follows every month creating a new start. Everyone is so energized and motivated to do even better this month than the last. It brings so much drive and positive energy for each of us to continue forward.

I'm ready to up it a notch. I have been thinking this weekend about my plan of action and how I am going to kick it into high gear. Full speed ahead. Guess at this point the thing I need the most is to exercise. So I am creating a challenge for myself. I love to spend time chatting and playing dumb games on Facebook. I decided tonight that I can play as much as I want on there this month. I will keep track of all of my time. And for every minute I spend playing online I have to put into exercising that day. So to all of my Facebook friends.....just know if I don't get on there this month that I still love you.

But since I have been being so convincing that I LOVE TO EXERCISE I should be able to spend tons of time on Facebook.

So lets bring on MARCH!

A little funny...

So, I am obsessing over my pictures. Thanks Karilynn for putting them side by side for me. I can't believe the difference, and it makes me so excited.

So, funny little story I'll share. I was so thrilled with my results yesterday. I spent most of my day on cloud 9 million and 99. I couldn't focus, couldn't think, and couldn't accomplish anything. I was in my own la-la land. I needed someone to give me a reality check and bring me down to earth speed. But that didn't happen. So last night I got in the shower to deck myself out for a hot date with my hot hubby. I pulled out of a box of clothes (that have been too small) a really cute outfit. I left my hair down (which hardly ever happens), put on jewelry, make-up and even some really nice perfume. I was feeling GREAT about myself, and it has been a long time since I have felt like I looked good. I needed to go to the grocery store. So I head out on my quest for groceries, and I was ready to strut my stuff. I'm walking around the store collecting the things I needed with my mind building up how good I look and that my hubby and I were going to have a hot date (seriously strutting around the store thinking I LOOK FABULOUS). Then it hit me. "UM, HELLO!!!! (my wake up call) you are still 30 pounds overweight, and no one is really going to notice how you look." And there it was laid before me, that I still have a lot of work to do if I want to make heads turn. I very quickly came to reality that unless I ran into someone that I knew, no one there would have any idea that I have accomplished something great. I had a good laugh about it -- seriously had a good laugh about it. Then finished quickly at the store, and got home to my hubby...who thought I LOOKED FABULOUS!

So, I have a lot of work to do. If I want people's heads to turn, I have a ways to go. But it's doable, and I KNOW IT! The progress I've made just makes it clear to me that I CAN DO THIS! I can continue to lose and become healthy and feel great everyday of my life.

And the scale says....

I can't stop jumping around and being so excited. I am so happy to be down for a grand total of 24.4 pounds....that simply blows me away......

I am thrilled that I was able to pull off the weight loss I did this month. And it has just added a little more fuel to my fire. I want to keep moving along...and kick it into gear. I have been exercising more. Remember I LOVE TO EXERCISE! I am not doing it perfect but a whole lot more than not. I'm thrilled with the transformation I am making to my body.

Had to stand on the scale a few times this morning to make sure I was seeing it right. I don't know that it has really set in yet. All of the things I opted not to have...I have made myself a very happy girl this morning.

I will say month 2 was a bit harder. I can only imagine that month 3 will be even more so. With the loss I have had it begins to get easier to start justifying little tiny things....I've done really well and that Reese's big cup should be a reward. I am so trying to hold strong to saying NO! I know that ONE will hurt me! Once I've justified one thing it gets easier to justify more. So tonight I will make my flax seed pudding (cause I really liked it) and I will celebrate my loss!

Oh my weigh in this morning was 154.6 down from 164.4 last month.

Big weigh in coming....

It's like Christmas. I can hardly wait to see how I have done. I know I haven't posted everything for anyone that wanted to keep track. I really wasn't trying to keep everything a secret. I have just had a crazy month. I know that I had it in me to do a little more, but I am hoping that I have done enough. I am feeling pretty confident about myself right now. I have had a fair month. I have gone down and down and down....and that makes me excited. I have not been weigh in regularly so I too, will be surprised with my results tomorrow morning. I have an idea.... and I know we will all be on here checking everyones blogs in the AM. good luck and here's to tomorrow.....

I LOVE TO EXERCISE!!!!

NOT! I love to exercise. I love to exercise. I love to exercise. I am trying to convince myself that it is something I love to do. I'm not being very convincing. I HATE IT! I am still very much struggling in the exercise department. But I know what I eat is what really, really matters. So I should leave the cheesecake in my fridge alone...it doesn't need me.
I can't even tell everyone how excited I am that there is another weigh-in this Friday. I can't wait. I haven't done as good as I know I could have done. But I don't think I totally have failed this month either. It will be fun to see how we all have done.
I have pants that no longer fit. And I mean really no longer fit. I have to get rid of them. One of the pairs are my absolute favorites. Funny thing is I don't want to get rid of them... but I don't intend to ever fit in them again, so away they will go. They are a pair of slacks, and I'll tell you what, slacks are not meant to be big in the hips and saggy in the butt. They no longer look very nice on me.

One thing I have really missed this month is my blogging. I know I've said it before -- and you will all be sick of hearing me say it again -- but I'm going to try hard again to blog everyday. This month, I let life take over and I failed to blog. I do so much better when I am blogging, and I pull great positive motivation and energy from reading all of yours.

Good luck everyone on your final days!
oh yeah, and I LOVE EXERCISE!